Extention of Dreams...

Why do I do this?  What is my goal?  I ask myself those questions all the time.  I mean, its not like I have a bunch of people who constantly check my site for updates.  Half the time, making comics and working on new projects cuts into my real life, just the other day, I wanted to walk the dogs with my mom, but I couldn't because I had a deadline I set  for my new sprites.  So I made up a bogus excuse tho not go with her.  I love walking the pups, its relaxing, and it gets me out of the house.  I felt bad for letting her down, but I put my work first...

Hell, I still feel bad about it.  Moments like that make me second guess what I do with my life, make me feel like what I'm doing doesn't mean anything.  But, as always, I push the thoughts out of my head and the sprites turned out better than I could have ever imagined.

You know, maybe its like my step-father said, maybe its self-gratification.  But, is that such a bad thing?  Think about the repercussion the my sprites could have in the community I'm a part of.  I submitted them to the Cougar Sprite League, a sprite tournament ran by a couple of my friends, somebody on the site could see those sprites and think, "He would be perfect for that game and/or comic I'm making!"  That in turn leads to a creative mind being able to express it self through my creation.

So, I'll ask myself again, why do I allow myself to continue working on something so time consuming?  I do it because I love it, I do it because I have friends who appreciate my work, I do it for me.